Don't you just want to be alone?...

I want to be alone but I can't.
I don't know why.
I need it.
I want it.
But whatever I do I can't.
Maybe because so much is going on in my life.
Maybe because I have to keep going to school and church.
And maybe it's just because I can't say no.
I can't tell someone to just leave me alone.
I sit their and try to go in my own world but I can't keep doing that.
I want to tell them to let me have some time to myself.
But I just can't.

So, Happy Valentines Day... "You... should take that back..."

It's Valentines Day and I am still alone. Oh well. I guess I'm used to it now. Anyway just wanted to let you guys know how much I love you. I would just be locked in my room all the time if I didn't get to see you. Hope you had at least a somewhat enjoyable holiday. If not, I'll make tomorrow better. Anyways, I love you guys. Hugs and loves. If you ever need anything just let me know. You do so much for me it's time to return that. He he. I'm like laughing at nothing. But at everything. Love you. He he... Can I just say I love inside jokes? I used to not have any. Now I have more than I can even remember. I love that. Ok I'm done. Love you.

Rebellion...

Ok so lately I've like gone against a lot of the things I said I wouldn't. I don't know why exactly I've been acting like this but I do know that I am so sick of my responsibilities. They are mostly involved with church things. So it like makes me want to go against the things I've been taught. I don't really want to but I also don't want to go back. I know I'm not the only person to go through a rebellious phase and I know it's no where near as bad as some. Maybe I'm just over reacting. But I'm tired of church. I've tried to make it better. But their is no way around that fact that I just don't want to deal with it right now. But how can I let my parents know that? I'll just go eat my pie that me and Brittany bought and eat my emotions... But that is such a bad idea. Dang it.